Last Day of Vacation

Last day of my vacation.  I feel renewed, inspired, ready to go.  In my quiet time today I was reading about God desiring me to live in victory and not fear.  I am starting to see that I have a strong fear that has been controlling my life for far too long.  I have this strong fear of failing, making something worse, imperfect and I'm realizing how I've succumbed to this stifling fear and being stunted in so many areas of my life. Maintaining the "look" of being together perpetuated my fear of trying something, anything new.  My fear of "being rotten at it so don't try and just keep looking/thinking about it" kept me on the outside looking in.  Very lonely and small feeling.  God has been showing me His desires for me.  He desires for me to be powerful, determined, confident in who He has made me to be.  I'm tired of comparing myself and feeling inadequate.  There is no one like me, I am unique, fearfully and wonderfully made so I want to celebrate and glorify God. When I put His work down with insults, comparisons, I am doing the exact opposite.  It is being in God's presence that brings me to the best version of myself not being in the perfect/comfortable circumstances.  "Do not let my heart be troubled and do not be afraid" John 14:27b-dare to trust in Him who made me.